Hi ! I had fun yesterday. After school chilled at Union Square for a bit cause thats like one of my favorite places to be at. Then I saw my dad for a few hours. Then back to Ridgewoooood, then home. Homecoming was last night. I, personally had fun, thanks to , he who must not be named<3. Anyways, I have the most ridiculously fake smile. I'm starting to loathe it like for realsssssssss. Blahhhh , homework now, date later. Bye ! - talk about awkward poses.-______-

Hi ! I hate thanksgiving ! Especially since I pretty much cooked everythingggggg ! ughhh. My week so far has been pretty good though. No school till Monday. Daddy wanna make moves for the weekend so we out<3 blah "homecoming week" was annoying. Remember how I posted the thing about staying on a Saturday with Hennessy putting the damn posters ?, I go to school Monday and none of the posters are up. I was so mad I worked hard on those things =/ So we had to remake them . I thought the other ones came out better but whatever. The pep rally ,on the other hand was supposed to be like great, hate to break it to you but it wasn't -___-. Best part was when we bust the Juniors ass in the tug of war. But then the seniors beat us. But c'mon, they had like 10 really big dudes. And we didn't. I was like the strongest one there ;-) Okay I joke, I joke, I kid, I kid.;-)Yo I look like a fucking munchkin next to Adam.<3 tartar sauceeeeeeeeeeeeeee >;O

I'm only posting this video because Karina<3 wants to be e-famous. -___-

So Friday night I went to school and started reading the book Twilight , then chilled with one of my friend because it was his birthday , then I went home and continued reading, then I fell asleep while reading and once I woke up again, I continued reading until I finally finished reading a 500+ paged book in one day. Hahahaha I'm real. Then I went with people to watch it. Javi was my real date tho<3 Its a really good book and the movie was perfect. The director had cut a few parts but whatever. And I usually never go hard like this but once I started reading, I practically fell in love with Edward Cullen. No I'm lying. Today from like 9-330 I was in school. I went to class in the morning and then I stood with my friend freaking decorating the gym and multi-purpose room for spirit week. Smh at the fact that it was only me and her that stood doing this crap and I'm not even a cheerleader. Blah then salon then I went shopping with my mom. Blahh it was brickk and javi hates me for putting this up but ilh=]
oh how I hate outdoor night pictures.
freaking decorating lockers for the starting line up of every team.. -_-

Hi ! I didn't go to school today because the kids had half day and my mom wasn't sure if they had afterschool. It turns out they did but I had to pick them up anyway. But anyways I found my old memory card and the stuff on it was lol -_-. I'm mad I deleted some things but whatever. Blah I'm gonna put away the laundry I did this morning. I don't get it, my mom says I'm lazy. But I cook & clean wtf more she wants? Tomorrow night I'm going with like a bunch of people to see that movie thing Twilight. I'm not done with the book but so far its good. I guess I'm watching the movie before I finish but whatever. If you haven't noticed my blog vocabulary consist of the words "whatever" and "anyways". Whatever don't judge me. Anyways "school spirit week" is next week lol 3 days of stupidity. Monday= Nerd Day which I have no idea what your supposed to wear. Tuesday= Twin/Crazy Hair Day and then Wednesday = School colors and the Pep Rally. I'm the tug of war haha =] But Monday I have a trip with my global class to The Museum of Jewish Heritage for the Holocaust exhibit. Then were going to South Street Seaport to shop, which means I'm going to be eating Japanese food so woooohooo. And homecomings the 5th, Idk If I'm gonna go this year, but if I do I need a date and a dress. Blahhh I hate my school but I lovee the planner =/
8th grade t-shirt
*edit - i made mini fat cakes =]

Halloween came and went. I didn't do much but watch a bunch of movies cuz people love to forget about people. Finished a few books and ate the kids candy. I was going through my phone today and found notes I had hidden, I loled. Most were unfinished blog post that I never published. The rest were emails, passwords and love letters. Smh. Lol @ Jay-z's roc boys video, so many people making cameos. Blahh I'm bored. Election day is on tuesday. I'm not allowed to vote so fuck you america ! But thanks for the day off, still hate you though.I'm joking. No I'm not. Anyways, Barack you rock ! My brother took this, its better than any pics my sisters taken, besides the fact that I look darker, my hair looks wierd, my face looks wierd, I LOOK WIERD, does the whole cassie&vanessa thing but yea I wasn't ready so >=O Well hes the talented one out of us three. He can really draw. His birthday is next month. I wanna buy him something. Oh yea and my friend was on youtube today and sent me this video. If you see why he sent it , shake your head in disapproval. You can stop watching it after 30 seconds. -___-

Hi. I've been really slacking on this. Idk, I'm rarely on my pc. I could post on my phone but blah. Well how are you? Me? I've been pretty ok. Schools boring, but I'm passing all of my classes. Halloween is friday, I wanted to dress up, but thats not happening. Joharry turned fifteen saturday. He threw a party. I had fun. I should be doing my homework now. But I'm not. Why? Cuz niggas is lazy. Anywhos, I'm listening to forever. Idk its old,but I'm starting to like it now. My mom is screaming at me from the other room. I have my big headphones on. I don't know what shes saying. Friday, I spent most of the day with Vanessa. In her house,watching part of the notebook. Then degrassi, since I haven't seen that in years. Wanna know why? Cuz my mom is cheap. The cable I have, you have to add Disney channel & The N -_- But I have all the movie channels so =P So yea, this was a useless post. this song makes me wanna go to hawaii =/

Lmfao one of my fave actresses<3

Its fall<3

I have a split personality,just thought you should know..

Wifey<3

Self portrait for class -_-

Lethargic Ass Bitch ( LAB :] )

Here I go again with the random emoness. I mean like I just randomly start feeling strange and EVERYTHING bothers me. Schools still stressful. Friday I have a practice SAT & a PFT. Hopefully I can pass both. Speaking of passing , I'm passing Enviromental Science with an 85 woohoo and English with an 80. Idk about the rest of my classes. But I really need to stop being lazy. I'm smart, I know it. I just act so lethargic most of the time. I think nostalgia causes my "depression." I need to stop it. Everytime my mom sees me she asks whats wrong and like always I say nothing. I love my mother no matter how much we argue. But I just don't see her as one to go to when I need someone to talk to. I rather blog. Lol. On the other hand, photography class on Saturdays is really grabbing my attention. I sorta "borrowed" this really heavy book called "The History of Photography" and found it to be really cool. I like a lot of modern photographers from the 60-90's. Really good shit. Started reading a book called "The Glass Castle" the other day. Its a memoir and as much as I hate memoirs, I actually like it. Good looks Ms. Jones (: So today in school around 9th period, I was going to my locker to leave some textbooks and some kid offered to carry my books. It was cute , but it got me mad. When I need help, I never get it. People always come to me when they need something. I'm a nice person but don't take advantage of me. I'm pretty humble which is a reason a lot of people find me vulnerable. I'm starting to lose my temper really easily. Idk like I've said in previous posts shit is really getting me mad recently. I feel like I'm being repetitive. Blah but yea, my hair looks how it looked Sunday, don't ask how, haha. I have homework but I don't feel like doing it at the moment. (Lazy ass bitch, smh)

DXC NYC -________-

Debbys mom ended up driving her to my house where she met my parents and the kids. We left and ran into some people on the line. Blah it wasn't bad everyone was broke. It was nice seeing some people. No good pics. I need my camera, anyone gonna lend me a grand? =]

I don't know

I'm confused. I don't know why. I've been feeling wierd out of nowhere. Like just randomly at anytime of the day I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Everyone tells me to calm down but I get so panickyy. I just wanna cry. I wanna cut my hair shoulder length. I wanna cross the street on a green light and not get hit by a car. I wanna wake up somewhere I have no idea how I got there. I wanna have single serving friends. I wanna just throw out or delete everything I don't want. I wanna have an imaginary friend that will do everything I will do. I wanna make soap. I wanna take a picture with grass in the background. I wanna change my name to something catchy. . I wanna have friends that actually care. I wanna lay down by myself and watch a bunch of movies I love. I wanna know everything from a time before mine. I wanna play with fire and not get burned. I wanna travel the world to take pictures of beautiful nothings. I wanna do everything i've never thought of not doing. Why ? I don't know. & yes I'm not tired. & yes I'm watching Fight Club. & yes I know I don't make sense.

I <3 JOHN MAYER

Men aren't dogs ; dogs are loyal.

I guess you'll say I complain to much about boys, but hey last time I checked I'm the one with the blog and the vagina. But yea seriously, it gets me mad when boys are fighting over a girl that isn't even worth it. I mean sure everyone has their own taste and whatnot but if I was a guy I wouldn't want a girl thats given head to half the male population. But then again there is that word "change." Do people really change when there in "love"? And like boys uhm you guys are fckn wierd and confusing. Deadass, I understand that as a female I can be an asshole or a bitch or whatever most of the time but what the fuck is up with you guys ? Make up your fucking mind already or go gay wtf. Ugh I have that feeling in my stomach like if I'm gonna barf. Fuck it blah I fee like idk I mean this last kid, not my ex so stfu, but yea idk he was weird as fuck and like bullet bullet hes just gone, wtf I hate when I get mad over little shit like this. "oh cindy you can do better" you know what ya need to shut up and stop telling me what to do. What if I did like this person ? Fuck ya gonna do to me? All I know is like I need him to fucking tell me he doesn't like me so I can live me life. But the thing is omg whatever idk but like I'm actually stressing something that has a penis. Smfh. Where the fuck is the real Cindy ? Oh yea,blogspot is being a bitch and not letting me upload the layout I made so I'm using this in the meanwhile. & I'm back to my fucking insomnia days and I got school tmrw but fuck it I'll live.

To real niggas who ain't got no feelings...

& thats all a bunch of bullshit. We all know boys have feelings too.They just have better ways of not showing it.Its either that or their too ashamed of how they really feel. "Fuck that"---> uses Big Pun Voice (:The ego's males have nowadays is disgusting.I mean like every single one has like the biggest ego ever.They say chivalry is dead but modesty died along with it. Well I need to finish my homework cuz idk if I'm going to school or not.

This year its all about that 85 and above average real fucking talk.

Next person to fuck with my head..

Hello World

Hello to all , I'm somewhat back from a "mini-vacation" I took the liberty in planning. I just needed to get away from NY for a few. I'm back so wass goooddd? As much as my lazy ass hates shopping ,today I went shopping with my darling mother around the city. Mind you this was not back to school shopping but thats what it ended up being. I'm not even gonna mention what I bought but thats because I don't remember. All I remember is that I am -$234.After that we picked up the kids from their summer camp award ceremony , where the little rascals were loaded with awards. We went out to dinner. Very unexpected but fun nonetheless.
Well I'm off to go sit on the couch and watch my latest pickup "Catch me if you can."

Cuz I seriously forgot how much I love this song.

Why I love the L train. I have ridden this train for 15 years of my life. It takes me everywhere I want to go. Its pretty fast and rather clean. With its black sprinkled floor, you just wanna lick it, Ok I lied about that, thats gross. But like idk I don't ride a lot of trains but every time I'm on the L I find so much diversity within the people. I know this is in every train but shut up, I'm talking about the L train now. Idk I wrote this on the train because I was bored. But yea you can find those cool white boys with the tight jeans and the dressy shoes and the square framed glasses. Keep looking and you'll find the old lady with the groceries. Or the Mom with her 3 kids, one reading a book , one looking out the window (even though their underground) and the one trying to prove he can stand on the moving cart without falling. Then the dude that comes in with his "stunna shades" blasting lil wayne out his headphones grilling cause he thinks hes hot. Or the couple that stay in the corner all loveyish Or the crew that comes in with their fresh gear on I can continue but I rather stop now. I'm kinda disappointed ---> anywhos isn't a real word =/ But ANYWAYS today was cool , met up with Debbyy at her gay ass job and then Adammm at Subways. (I'M REALLY SORRY CHRIS =/ ) But yea we just chilled I bought another cd =/ I need to stop. My phone is being real gay, well the charger is and its not charging correctly and its getting me pissed off. Hence the pissed off face >:O Blahhh Work tmrw , just gonna watch a movie and go to sleep.
She thinks I'm shorter -_____-

Song of the night

Might I add, Tim Burton is a fucking genius.

Its loveeeeeeeeee 072807* CINDYYY: Lol I picked the other one CASSIE:ass. CASSIE: =D its easy? CINDYYY:Yea CASSIE: lol so y u aint done. CINDYYY: I'm just procastiwhateverating CINDYYY:Making video blogs and shit lol CASSIE: procrastinating. lmaoo . CASSIE: me too. CASSIE: lmao ily CINDYYY:=] CASSIE:;] say ily2 ! CINDYYY: I love you too dirty pirate hooker I keep procrastinating. I seriously need to do that essay. I haveee to do extremely better this year in school. Someone help me concentrate =/ But on the other handddd My first video blog post thingy lmao. Theres a first & LAST time for everything lol =/ Enjoy<3

I feel like shit. The past three days I've been listening to these 5 songs consistently. -Raekwon & Ghostface & Nas - Verbal Intercourse -Nas - It Ain't Hard To Tell(stfu) -The La's - There She Goes -The Killers - When You Were Young -Maroon 5- She Will Be Loved The essay shit,is due tomorrow. I'm gonna start it today. Last night I deleted most of my buddy list on aim. I have no idea why I had so many damn buddies. I now have about 106 people on my list. These people are people that I actually talk to and have some type of relationship with them. The same goes for MySpace. I understand its "A Place For Friends" pero what the fuck is good? Bitches only add you to be nosy and boys only add you to bag. I'm about to cut my fucking hair again and change the color. I get bored with the same shit. For a while now, I've been wanting a tattoo, but I have no fucking idea what to get. I spoke with my mom about it and she said its cool if its somewhere where it won't hurt me in the future. Somewhere in my hip on my right side , to me , sounds like a good place. But still I have no idea what to get. I'm still young though I have time to get it another time. Everyone does what everyone else does. Monkey see , Monkey do ? -_- Absolutely. My mom recently bought me a new pillow. Its so fluffy and big and I'm not used to it yet. This morning I woke up with so much pain. Then again I always wake up with pain. But anyways, I hate how I can't be on my bed without falling asleep. Like I was fixing my wall again around 6ish and I fell asleep. I hate that. And last night after the movie, I got in my bed to start reading and I had my phone in my hand (Like always) and I was talking to a few people. I wrote something to them and not even a minute they reply and I'm already knocked out. How do I know this? I checked my phone this morning.It somehow wound up inside my shirt. Talk about Phone sex -_- Well I'm off like a dirty shirt -_- I'm gonna start that essay.

I'm still sick. Now more than ever. -_- Anyways Yancarlos wanted me to mention him in my blog. Happy?I mentioned you haha <3 I have a homework assignment due on Friday and its not no summer school thing its work from the year. Ok I know my school is wack. I wanna leave it too but idk I have mixed feelings. Leave me alone tho. Shit =/I haven't been to Virgin in a minute I wanna go and buy more cds already lol Thats my new favorite face ( =/ )If I'm gonna die soon what is there to be happy about ? In my room, I wanna have one picture,but that picture needs to be mad hot like odee ill and then I wanna rasterbate it. Tha'ts like when one big picture is like printed out in different lengths. My thalia<3 has a picture on her myspace where she did it and I like it. Ily nigga I know you reading this<3 I wanna watch a movie tonight like I usually do. But idk what ? Joharry suggest porn but that's no fun. Seriously though, that unprotected shit, the "I like it raw", chill but fuck it you do you that's just not for me.

SOME OF MY FAVORITE MOVIES OF ALL TIME.

I hate when I can't make a decision. Whether its picking a juice to drink or a boy. Ughh boys are assholes. I don't care. All of them are. They say one thing and mean the other. Even my little brother fits in this category . Lemme stop though because girls are the ill bitches. Its sucks how a girl can have sex with a bunch of people and be a slut but a boy does it hes a "playa" fuck outta hereeee. But yea I'm like all sad here I don't have a clue why. =/ Whenever I feel like this (75%) of the day , I listen to songs that degrade women calling them sluts and whatnot, make me feel all good inside but then I feel like their talking about me. -_-

Nasir Jones

Must I say more? Unbelievable. In my opinion , this guy is the truth. Seriously , have you really sat down and just listened to him rap ? Hes incredible. Before I die I need to see him rap in person. Hes going to be at Rock The Bells this August and I won't be there. The other day I found out he performed at Alife. I was so pissed off. Like idk most of you are probably saying I just like him because everyone else does but that's not why. I mean like have you heard Illmatic ? His first album and one of the best rap albums known to man. Don't get me wrong I have the same love for Jay-z as well but if I ever had to choose it will definitely be him. I think his new album comes out tomorrow not to sure. Either way I have to see if I go to Union and stop by Virgin and Forever 21 to pick of a few gifts for some people. But yea be back soon<3