I don't know

I'm confused. I don't know why. I've been feeling wierd out of nowhere. Like just randomly at anytime of the day I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Everyone tells me to calm down but I get so panickyy. I just wanna cry. I wanna cut my hair shoulder length. I wanna cross the street on a green light and not get hit by a car. I wanna wake up somewhere I have no idea how I got there. I wanna have single serving friends. I wanna just throw out or delete everything I don't want. I wanna have an imaginary friend that will do everything I will do. I wanna make soap. I wanna take a picture with grass in the background. I wanna change my name to something catchy. . I wanna have friends that actually care. I wanna lay down by myself and watch a bunch of movies I love. I wanna know everything from a time before mine. I wanna play with fire and not get burned. I wanna travel the world to take pictures of beautiful nothings. I wanna do everything i've never thought of not doing. Why ? I don't know. & yes I'm not tired. & yes I'm watching Fight Club. & yes I know I don't make sense.